a surge of sadness

life is miserable, and being here in australia is not helping. on friday was the athletics carnival, we all had to run the 100m which i came in 4th in my heat; 14.09s.. after that i attempted the long jump which earned me a lifetime of embarassment, the volleyball novelty match which my house lost and to wrap of the day, our house lost to rivals elliott in the final standings.

i just realised that my life is screwed, if i dun get a scholarship for uni, i have to pay $17000 per term for not being an aussie citizen. hence i have the following choices: a) be an aussie citizen, give up singapore citizenship and go to uni
b) stay a singaporean citizen, mug like shit to get a scholarship for med school
c) dun get aussie citizenship, dun get scholarship and dun go to uni
d) move back to sin where i most prob have to repeat a year in jc or something.


hence, my chances are slim, in order to get a scholarship i have to get a university admission index of 100 ( rank top 10 in the state ), sigh....

as of now, i am waiting for a miracle. today was spent studying, i have several assessments the following week, these include: an essay and oral presentation for modern history, an english assignment, math test on calculus, trig ratios and circle geometry.

i can't wait until december when sean, denise and val come down to rescue me from the surging misery i'm sinking in.

p.s. i would like to congrats the youth world team for their efforts and wish the radial worlds and opti worlds team good luck.

update

on tuesday, wednesday and thursday i trained. the wind was average with it being 5-25 knots throughout the 3 days. it was good trng, i improved my strong wind sailing heaps and i learnt new techniques. besides sailing, i made new friends with grace tweddell, a brit living in melbourne, she came over to train with me nick and alex. on thursday, me grace and alex went to watch harry potter, in a nutshell, it was a good movie but its plot lacked a lot the book had.. so those who are confused, read the book!

birthday shoutout

i want to wish CAROLINE KAN a very happy birthday
10 things i like about caroline kan:
1. she is always there for you, during the good and bad times
2. even with us being 8000 miles apart, we still communicate and share good times
3. she understands my problems, good and bad
4. she is trustworthy even if she was interogated by osama i know she won't leak
5. she is beautiful, both in and out
6. she has a heart of gold
7. she is always there when needed
8. she has a good sense of humour
9. she has lived a very fulfiling 16 years
10. she fights for what she believes in

so to ms kan, have a very happy 16th birthday, and may many more NC16 movies await your arrival.

blow wind blow

the last few days have been SO WINDY... last weekend it was 25-30 knots, on wednesday it was 36-40 knots, on thursday it was 30-35 knots and yesterday was the lightest in 3 weeks, 10-17 knots!.... someone save me... i also have so much homework.. my license application was denied.. i didnt have a secondary identification so i have to wait until i have one... besides that nothing much, my uncle is here from melbourne with some friends and we went out on friday night until 3.30 am... talk about lack of sleep, we saw the kitty hawk... some big american ship... besides that we went to eat pancake at the rocks and had some lindt chocolate... life is good... for now..

licensed to drive

today was more exciting then usual, the day started when i went with my school to see the cross, a wyd thing, we then went to watch fantastic four 2 which i thought had less of a plot then the first but really cool action scenes... this coming week will be busy with my driving license test on friday... as for now, i'm waiting for time to fly by as i await the start of the f1 race.