a surge of sadness

life is miserable, and being here in australia is not helping. on friday was the athletics carnival, we all had to run the 100m which i came in 4th in my heat; 14.09s.. after that i attempted the long jump which earned me a lifetime of embarassment, the volleyball novelty match which my house lost and to wrap of the day, our house lost to rivals elliott in the final standings.

i just realised that my life is screwed, if i dun get a scholarship for uni, i have to pay $17000 per term for not being an aussie citizen. hence i have the following choices: a) be an aussie citizen, give up singapore citizenship and go to uni
b) stay a singaporean citizen, mug like shit to get a scholarship for med school
c) dun get aussie citizenship, dun get scholarship and dun go to uni
d) move back to sin where i most prob have to repeat a year in jc or something.


hence, my chances are slim, in order to get a scholarship i have to get a university admission index of 100 ( rank top 10 in the state ), sigh....

as of now, i am waiting for a miracle. today was spent studying, i have several assessments the following week, these include: an essay and oral presentation for modern history, an english assignment, math test on calculus, trig ratios and circle geometry.

i can't wait until december when sean, denise and val come down to rescue me from the surging misery i'm sinking in.

p.s. i would like to congrats the youth world team for their efforts and wish the radial worlds and opti worlds team good luck.